God help me, I'm getting back into my running by completing a 30K...hopefully in one piece. I'm not proud of my break from what was once my world...but hell...life happens.
Here are some things that shook my world when I stopped running/swimming/biking...
*I started to forget things ---like my memory seriously started slipping
*I was constantly lethargic
*I was grumpy
*Life was not so vivid
*I got fat --- like Fkn hella fat where the Dr. goes, "Maybe you should stop eating"
This is one of those funny...If I had only knew then, what I know now...sadly, I already knew it...but I was just tired...work trumped my loves and really...when I'm happy I exercise.
Now...since I'm better, faster, stronger when I'm in a loving, happy, strong relationship...I decided to have a better relationship with myself instead. I'm the opposite of most people--in the sense that when I'm in a relationship, I get really fit...and when I'm not, I get fat. Haha. It's a process, but I think I'm finally okay with this limbo I've been stuck in for a while.
To kick start my month of hell leading to the marathon I was once excited about, I'm going to diet. I've never really faithfully dieted before because I was always active...but being the fat mofo that I am now...sometimes it's just necessary roughness. Haha. Goodbye sugary goodness...savory saltiness...and all things worth eating...*tear*
Every morning...even if it kills me, I'm going to run again. If I could jump out of bed at 430am before to run 4 miles and do plyos...I can do it again! Damn Straight! LOL! *don't worry, I'm normal...inside I'm cringing.*
I have even told my PT job that I'm going to resign if my schedule does not get reduced to weekends. *I grew a backbone!* I'm going to workout 6 days a week pretty hard and go easy on my rest day.
I'm going to do this!
I'm going to do this!
I'm going to do this so I don't die at the end of the marathon this year! :D
Good luck me...I'm going to need it!
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